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Surviving Church

“Should we go to church this morning?”   My wife and I ask each other this question every week. We have for the last two years.   It didn’t used to be like this. We once considered our church a…

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Alyosha: Thoughts on Book VII of The Brothers Karamazov

“He who loves men loves their joy.”   “I do not rebel against my God, I simply do not accept his world.”     This book starts off like a horror film—centered around the drama and intrigue that the Elder…

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We Don’t Do That

We walk in and a woman tells us to pick a color. I’m drawn to the blues. They seem whimsical and youthful and impractical. But it’s getting warmer, and I should stick with what everyone does this time of year:…

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Searching for a Faith Like Summer

He died during finals week. I was 20 years old and a college sophomore. Somewhere between articulating in paragraph format Abraham Maslow’s Pyramid and Eric Fromm’s Eight Basic Needs, my childhood hero passed away.   George was my fourth grade…

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How Do I Make Space to Process My Faith? Dear Addie #15

Dear Addie, I have found comfort in your writing lately, as another angsty soul undergoing a spiritual reckoning of sorts. Like many “Dear Addie” readers, I find myself unsure of how to move forward. I grew up evangelical in the…

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Orthodox Comfort

A couple of months ago I resigned from my job. It wasn’t a good resignation—it was scandalous and controversial and public. I am still reeling from the effects of this trauma in my life. Many times a personal crisis reveals…

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The Struggle of Half the Church

“I don’t know any theologically sound books written by women,” a pastor once told me. The words still ring in my ears when I think about my place as a woman in the church. “Theologically sound.” That descriptor hurts because…

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The Problem with Giving Money to the Church

I have an issue with giving to my local church: my money no longer goes toward social services—or at least it is highly unlikely. I, however, very much want at least some of my money going toward these things.  …

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Bound to Each Other: Walks with Lily

Each year the state of Maine issues a select number of moose permits for hunters who have bid into a lottery. There are many hunters who have bid-in every year for maybe ten, twenty, or thirty years, but never win…

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Silence and Other Surprising Invitations of Advent

I ordered Enuma Okoro’s book, Silence and Other Surprising Invitations of Advent, sight unseen on the internet several years ago. It has become a treasured yearly companion, giving me space to process waiting, worry, doubt, and what it means when…

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